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Thursday, May 19, 2005

So much hidden;

so much digged out;

so much pain.

I contemplate about returning home today,

but I thought of the things that took place

and I started strolling home -

recalling everything.

Today's day in school was pretty fine. At least it ease off yesterday's drama at home and Leng's concern was pretty comforting, though it was a short and simple one. You hardly get a concern phrase from her, and I felt better.

Sigh. The tears of my little reindeer reminded me of what Jon once told me. I never thought it will happen in my life - right in the class I lived in now. And it is such a painful, hurting, discouraging and heart-wrenching scene one can ever watch(experience). Especially the one who is directly affected, the one get gossiped. Sigh, I feel for that girl, totally.

And I thought of my little drummer boy. He is so blissful now, that he has strayed away from me to another place I dislike totally. Sigh. I'm hoping for the day he comes back. ):

Very much I would wish I wouldn't have to return home; a place it should heal my wounds but to realise it is a place my wounds are most created. I strolled home hoping that Dad would be home because I miss him. Though we just had our bad time yesterday. That thirty seconds of standing in front of the door, the one I stood for 9years, made me took a deep breath, mumbled a prayer and unlocked it. Yes, my Dad was already home. (:

Oh yea! My Mum's home with bubble tea and food! :D But shucks, I lost my train of thoughts. ):

maoed.]
at 10:10 PM

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